Thursday, March 27, 2008

Dreams...


Sunday I had a dream about my mom. She was with another man that was not my dad. I couldn't quite figure out who he was, but I accepted it and asked my mom if she was happy. She told me she was and from the way she told me, I believe with all my heart that it was true. Then, she put her head on my chest and we held each other until I fell back into a deeper sleep.

I don't usually dream and if I do, I rarely remember them. And, lately, I have been listening to a self-hypnosis cd before bed and sleeping very deeply. But this dream was so vivid and comforting that I told my sisters about it at Easter dinner.

So, this morning when a co-worker was telling me about her strange dream, I told her mine. Then, I went back to my office and cried. It was a strange combination of missing her and having an answer to a question I have thought about since she passed away. I guess I got my answer.

4 comments:

Cherrye said...

This is a very sad post. I'm sorry for your loss. :-(

homebody at heart said...

Dear Cherrye,

My dream wasn't sad but joyful. I was comforted by the knowledge that my mom was happy where she was. My sisters weren't sad either when I told them. And I think more than anything, my tears were a release for me because I figured out who the man was (hence the photo selection).

Grief has been a slow process for our family from the loss of our mom and she has been gone now for 4 1/2 years. I never experienced the death of a close family member before, much less a parent. My own mom lost hers when she was 13 and I now understand all too well her loss even though I was in my forties.

Now, I can talk about my mom and tell funny stories about her without crying but it took a long time. She lived 9 months after her diagnosis of pancreatic cancer so her passing was not unexpected, and in the end, it was a blessing.

Death teaches us to value our own lives and those we love because none of us are going to live forever. And, I'm glad my mom is happy in her afterlife. Don't you think my dream was a sign from her?

(P.S. Don't even get me started on "heath care" in America.)

mental mosaic said...

Sounds like a very healing dream. :)

Thanks for sharing it on your blog!

homebody at heart said...

It was Tui and I asked my sister if my dream made her sad. She looked perplexed and said not at all. And, it was a different sort of dream. It had a very "real" feeling to it like I was there (in a garden or orchard no less with sunshine and birds and the sounds of people working).